The Gilded Goddess

Went to church today and for me, it was simply to feel the 'climate' of the people with the bullshit currently going on... and yes, there was plenty of bullshit going on, so we know not to go to church for a while.

But, what was interesting and the things I really went there for, did happen. Today in the service they were sort of commemorating the death of the last pastor, who was very young and had just left this church. He was only forty-two. His parents, who had ventured from southern MN came to attend the service as well. Well, one of the coolest things that happened was that when everyone was kneeling (and I don't kneel), in my mind's eye I saw the image of their son standing over them, with a hand on his mother's shoulder and another hand on his father's. He looked at me and said, "I love them so." He didn't give me a message for them, just that.

Another thing, we found out that Eugenie, the wondrous church organist, is down at Mayo with something wrong going on in her head. One gal alluded to her having auto-immune deficiencies. Now I know this Eugenie doesn't have HIV, so Kurt suspects that she's had the vaccine and this is what it's doing to her. Of course those 'experts' at the Mayo can't seem to figure it out, surprise, surprise. I prayed for her and asked God if I can work on her. He said no. So, again, I prayed for her and wished her the best.

Lastly, whenever in church, whatever church, I like to spend time staring at the alter (the flames were lit earlier in the picture)... and started to see this angel standing there, as if she were holding the cross. I've darkened the lines in on this picture so it's pretty clear. I even talked to the 'artist' and she said she was simply trying to clean off the soot from the candles. I'm going to send this picture to the church, so they can see it, too. I handed the original sketch to the pastor and he looked like a little kid when he saw it. Cool.

As for the 'climate'... while talking to another gal she told me she felt sorry for me because I didn't want the vaccine and every time I tried to state my position she actually said I was talking over her and the only reason I was was because she left me NO chance to speak. Exasperating to say the least... but when she said she knew it was all true because of 'the science'... I almost had to slap my hand over my mouth and run out of the church laughing. Days ago when our son was visiting and we talked about this bullshit, he continually repeated, in a most monotonous voice, "The facts are real. The science is real." And when this lady said that about the science, sounding just like my son sounded when he was just trying to sound like a mindless lemming... I knew it was useless talking to this woman any more, but she gave me her number and told me to call, we'd 'talk'. I thought, about what, making me believe how stupid you are? Believe me, honey... I already know!

Our little venture today gave both my husband and I great headaches, so that was a good idea... but it made us see that, as sad as this is, we may never belong to a church again, which breaks my heart, because I love the traditions and the beauty. I don't go for other people... I go to spend that lovely time with the Almighty, nothing more... and I don't think it will ever happen again.